What a pain in the ass!!!!!! We're currently on cycle 6 TTC. I've come to the conclusion that hubby doesn't want it. Makes this journey even more fun. A lot of people think I'm crazy for wanting a baby at 23, but what they don't understand is my body. Only I do. My guess is either hubby doesn't understand or he doesn't care. It scares the shit out of me that if I don't do this now, it'll never happen. Even though I know I'll get one child, I don't want just one.
Sometimes I question my life and if I made the right decision to get married and then I look at where I am now compared to where I was then and it makes total sense to me. I couldn't imagine being with someone else somewhere else. Although sometimes it's hard and with my health being where it is doesn't make my life easier but I have to pull each day. Some days I just don't know why I do.
I know and totally understand I'm not the only one on this journey. I just wish my husband would understand and want this as much as I do. It's heart breaking to know that he doesn't and I really don't know what to do anymore.
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